I wrote this myself: Please read.
Why do I always repeat the same story?
I've seen this place, heard these words.
It's almost as if it's a sign.
I know why I am here.
Someone is or was trying to tell me something.
But their dark words fill my head too violently.
The evil stares send me into a frenzy.
I needed you,
but you never showed.
I wanted you,
but you proved to want only one thing.
You wanted my soul.
This whole time I thought I was the angel you were calling for.
But it turns out you were the devil I was wounding myself around.
When I called,
you never answered.
When I screamed,
all I heard was your sinning chuckle waste away in my mind.
Or was I wasting away myself?
When I tried to find myself,
I couldn't.
I thought I was found,
when I was actually quite lost.
Your threatining voices still fill my memory,
and everyonce in a while,
I have to sit down&&think some things through.
When I finally built up my courage to tear you down,
you beat me to it.
Then my courage started to melt down slowly day after day.
I was fully drained of all power I had left.
I knew it went straight into the palms of your hands,
the place I feared most.
Your filthy ways,
were twisted into my brain.
I began hurting those around me.
Tearing down their confidence;
draining them of all their power.
I went to see you every day.
I gave to you the power I took from the people I loved most.
I was like your little puppet,
and I am still stuck on these thin strings.
Everyonce in a while, I gain my confidence back,
only for it to be lost once again.
Why do I always repeat the same story?
I've seen this place, heard these words.