i need to stop holding on
when i know that there isn't anything else to hold onto. we obviously aren't meant to be, and we will not now, not ever work out. i realize that. but every once in a while i get that urge to just try and rekindle the frienship we had in the beginning; even though you are my first love and i was head over heels for you, i wouldn't mind being just friends. you were nicer then. but now, you are different. i am different. our schedules are different for a reason. before i was sad about it, but now i realize why. we are two very different people. i must remind myself when i get these urges that we are not compatible, and there is someone out there better for me and better for him. that is it.