i feel like my friends don't
tell me a lot of the things that they tell other people they talk to, and for the simple fact that I don't kiss a.ss. When you choose to confide in me, you're choosing to hear my perspective on a situation, and I give it to you, positive or negative. I don't praise you when I truly think you've done something rude or asinine. I don't pretend to agree with everything that comes out of your mouth. I tell you straight up when I believe you used poor judgment, and I'll explain why I believe so if asked, but I don't apologize for having my view on the matter, because I feel that if you're telling me about it you want to hear what I have to say about it as well. And I guess people don't like that, and I guess I understand why. They like being applauded, they like having their pride validated. No one wants to hear that was stupid or that was really uncalled for as opposed to that was savage, girl, kill 'em! But it still stings a bit. It makes me feel like I'm not worthy of being confided in. And I hate being out of the loop. I hate not knowing things that other people do, no matter how trivial the piece of information. And, honestly, I'm just a jealous, high maintenance person who doesn't like feeling like somebody else is seen as smarter or more important to said friend and so they'd rather give them details that I'm always spared.