It's like Taylor Swift's song Ronan is an amalgamation of two very significant people in my life whose losses I've suffered this year: that of my grandmother, from cancer, which was the cause of death of the little boy the song was written/named for, and that of a child I bonded closely with for long enough to become deeply attached and consider my own, in a way. A lot of the details, the motherly relationship that's depicted and the image of permanent grief that's painted, strike a deep chord with me, both because of how my grandmother loved me and how I loved that child. I got so emotional listening to it last night. Glad I rediscovered it, even if it's painful to hear.