especially today i feel so gruesome. i don't want to catch my reflection or remain in my own skin. especially today i need your distraction, your decorated words of adoration. i can't stand myself i've starved then fulled myself to the brim. especially today i need your kindness to overcome my bitterness. i haven't been good. talk me out of this. help me set this straight. i don't want to sleep but i need rest. a day has gone by and i'm still in regret. especially today i needed you.