I'm at work and not supposed to be online. My employer says that she has software to see snapshots of whatever we do on the internet. Did she mean snapshots? Or just a list of the websites we visit? Well...she's not gonna be happy if she sees this snap, but I might as well still post it. Who knows? She might have already read this far...no use keeping her wondering. And I need to vent. I wonder what would happen if she found out how I feel about life right now? I wonder what would happen if she knew just how much my body has been destroyed by my crappy health. I wonder, if she knew, would she stop bugging me about making darned phone calls when it's hard to even hold a pen right now? Would she understand how much it takes out of me to just be here? As an introvert...this job is already extremely draining, just the fact that I have to deal with in-store customers and also be available to answer the phone, even though I do still have an underlying phone anxiety on top of the general social anxiety. But then to make more phone calls on top of that? Understandable, if I haven't already called them 20 times in the past month. But I recognise too many of these people's names and even know some of their phone numbers by heart. I should not be able to dial some customer of this company from my house. I should have to have their account open in front of my face for me to contact them, but no, I recognise their phone number and sometimes even their address. The pressure is killing me here. If some of them haven't paid by now, they won't pay again for at least another month, no need to keep leaving voicemails every single freaking day. This girl is tired. I am done.
dontsellyourselfshort
HelloKittyy11
Deep breaths, my love*
crimson24
seafoam*
